A Rocky Love

I just want to fall in love with my boyfriend but I don't think he's even ready! We only been dating for bout 8 months & it's been one rocky road after another & we still try to work thru us. & have faith in our relationship but things get rough.  We never actually said we love each other but I do feel it ! I'm scared to express it to him cuz he's just continuously breaks my heart & idk if he even feels the same. He says he wants to be with me but I don't feel tht way at times but I care too much to leave. Idk what to do