Being married is hard 😢😢😢😢

My husband works away from home monday-thursday, which means he also sleeps away from home for those days. When we are at home, we get along great. Like seriously great... And then when he's at work & we talk at night, sometimes all we do is argue. Like big arguments. Why does it have to be such a Jeckyl & Hyde type of thing?

I guess what bothers me is that when he's there, sometimes he will have a drink or two in the evening... Ordinarily, it wouldn't bother me, but I'm 37 weeks pregnant & he works 80 miles away. Buzzed driving is drunk driving in the eyes of the law. He says it wouldn't put him over the legal limit, but who knows... He's never had to use a breathalyzer. If he knows I'm in labor, & is driving like 90 on the freeway, he's a sitting duck to get pulled over.

The other thing that bothers me is that tonight, he tells me his friend came over for a few minutes cause she was in the area... Granted, I know her, she's happily married with a baby, they've been good friends for 20 years almost & have never been intimate. But... It still makes me uneasy, like little red flags go up & alarm bells go off. It's just pregnancy hormones causing paranoia. I know nothing would happen, but that's not the point.

He's totally trustworthy & overall a great husband and will make an extremely devoted father. It's just the days he's gone really takes a toll on our relationship. It's so night and day when we are together. 😢😢😢😢😢