Hope or not to hope

Hope can be one of life's cruelest lessons. It can make you or destroy you. I'm going on four days late. Completely scared to test because if I allow myself to hope and it comes back a bfn again I'll just be sadden even more. I will be testing when I get up. Thought I'd rather wait, my doctor wants to be sure before changing meds from Chlomid to a new one. I'll keep everyone informed. Thx for all the love.