It's my most fertile day. Two positive tests. Day 2 of ewcm. Perfect cervical position. And my husband doesn't want to have sex. Not even for me. Not to have a baby. Tonight he just doesn't care. He's in the den asleep. And I'm in bed crying. And he doesn't know it. So I'm just gonna have myself a glass or two. Because this was going to be the day that I would get our baby. After I lost our first, I am ready to be pregnant again. And I'm not getting that this month. Or next because he'll be gone. So here's to all you girls who can. I'll drink to you tonight.