Stressful week...

I just need to get things off my chest and mind.

Last Sunday I came home from a wonderful day to find my cat achmed dead. I was crying so hard I started hyperventilating my husband made me go lay in bed before I passed out.

Monday wasn't that great. My cat did everything with me. There wasnt a part of my day he wasn't involved in. So I left house and didn't come back till o had no choice.

Tuesday. Still upset and depressed. Had to go to NST. My baby boy was showing signs of fetal distress. They said he could just be sleeping so let me go home. I go out for mt evening walk come home about to make dinner and have to pee. I wipe and look toilet and toilet paper covered in bright red blood....I call L&D they tell me to come in and do an exam. Wasn't from my vagina was from my anus I had an inside hemmoroid bust. No big deal to me anyway. Get to go home.

Wednesday. Not as rough as past couple days been but still rough.

Thursday. Just an emotional wreck.

Friday. I wake up to someone knocking.I'm naked so throw on a robe and a lady asking me if we were missing two dogs sure enough I was. She had them and said she would bring them just lived at end of road. I get dressed call my husband and 45 mins later still nothing. I'm freaking out. Husband comes home and not to long after he shows up. A couple shows up with my dog but said the other one wouldn't let them get him. So my husband goes ans gets him. We get them retied up and adjust fence. I was about to make myself lunch when I looked at my calender and seen I had 30 mins to get to my doctors appt! I gather my stuff takes 17mins to get there. Then of course the side of hospital I have to go to has 2 spots for pregnant women and rest is hanicap parking for almost a half mile. So I have to walk as fast as I can into building then the long hallway to section I had to go to. From Tuesday I had vision changes and just wasn't feeling right but I lost my fur baby so of course I wasn't myself. My babys nst scan was perfect. But after being there for over an hour mt blood pressure wouldn't go down what so ever. Then they tested my reflexs which wasn't working... I told them I had a headache all day and wanted to go home. They think I've developed preeclampsia. I already have cholestasis. So blood worl has to be done. And found out I had pupps. I finally get home and find two of ours dogs ran off again. .. I call my husband a little while later freaking out. No one has seen them. He finally comes home and I'd spotted them in a yard but I couldn't get to them. He goes and gets them. We spend $50 on new tie out chains and collars as well as harnesses and give them a different set up. I'd had it with day and went to bed.

Saturday (today) woke up and two of our dogs are gone again. They weren't far this time but still! After seeing how they were getting out fixed problem hopefully. On top of all that my husband has been an assss all week. Making me feel like shit and every time I cleaned house he made it lool twice as bad as it was before. And In general getting my point I was just gonna leave because I couldn't take it. I asked if he was still in love with me and he shrugged his shoulders and walked away. Like wtf I went for a walk and after coming home wanted to know why I was upset..

Seriously. ..

Tomorrow I just wanna wake up. Mourn mt cats week death. Go flea market shopping and hopefully no dogs get loose.