Cutting after 2 years of being clean...

Sometimes I get so overwhelmed between my baby, my husband, and myself. My husband isn't the same anymore he ISN'T himself since he joined the Army. He said I made him join, but I swear I didn't force him to sign his name on those papers. I feel like a single mother! I'm doing everything I can with my 9 month old and she's behind on her motor skills, she won't eat her food. I'm just so stressed I honestly feel like everyone is against me even my husband I don't feel like his top priority anymore. I don't know what to feel anymore I'm drowning in my own thoughts 😩😩