Disappointed!!!

Had 13 pretty intense and painful contractions in one hour yesterday, really thought it was the real deal until they fizzled out. Woke up crying this morning so disappointed I never got my bloody show and that the contractions never intensified. Never been sad over NOT being in pain/bleeding vaginally lol. Such a hot mess. I just want to meet this tiny human already! Mommy and daddy are both ready to hold and kiss you now! I am so sick of being pregnant! This whole any day thing is driving me bonkers. I see my midwife on Tuesday, a day before 39 weeks to check and see if I'm more dilated (was at 3cm, station 0 last Tuesday) and do another membrane sweep. I did lose my mucus plug after she did the first one, I hope it hasn't regenerated!