Mixed Emotions

Desirae • Mom to a rainbow baby!
So as you lovely ladies all know I'm out lol but, part of me is relieved. My weight has (in my personal opinion) gotten out of control lately. When I met my husband(granted I was only 16) I weighed only 100 lbs.. My weight has gone up and down.. When we married I was 135... I am currently (embarrassed to admit) 165. I found myself every month hopeful I would be pregnant.. But also terrified to go to any doctors appts with DH fearing he would see my actual weight. Granted I will admit I carry it well.. I have a small waist and it tends to go to my hips and thighs (which DH loves lol) so I will say I am excited I'm not pregnant and can now focus on losing the weight! I want people to KNOW I'm pregnant when it happens.. Not have that "is she fat or pregnant" question in their minds!! As always thanks for listening cool crowd!! ❤️ya!!