Losing faith, hate the 2 week wait 😢😢

I swear I hate pms symptoms with a passion! They are so similar to pregnancy symptoms. Every month I get my hopes up and every month is a fail.... AF rears her ugly head. Not even getting my hopes up this month. My heart cant take it...Wishing so desperately for our rainbow baby After a miscarriage last year... I don't understand why is it everybody who shouldn't be having kids is popping them out left and right! I'm so tired of everyone telling me it will happen. Stop trying... maybe your not meant to have one right now.. okay so crack heads and immature lil brats are ment to have babies then???!! I prayed last night this would be the month. I prayed and cried and placed my hands over my tummy... yet I still feel hopeless.. sorry ladies needed to rant a bit. 💔💔💔😢😢😢