The 2 biggest fights Ive had w/ my fiance are when were drunk. Hes fine,its me that always says or does something. For no reason.

Last night I was mad(i think) bc he wasnt giving me any attention. So I started blaring music in the living room(at 1am)

He never came up to me. I look outside and hes got a camping chair across the street lol. Just to get away and avoid problems.

What does my drunk ass do?

Take all his important documents,his file cabinet and threw everything in our front yard. For no real reason.

I clearly have some kind of anger issues,I need to figure out.

Im not sure we can make it any further. I think he wants to work it out,but he deserves so much better then this. I feel like the right thing to do is walk away and let him live. Im meant to be alone.