I don't like being a mom (yet?) 😫😭

My LO is almost 3 weeks old and sure he's adorable but the lack of sleep and not being on a schedule is just about to break me. My husband is going back to work tomorrow and told me he isn't going to be able to help out with the nighttime madness anymore. Sure I can sleep during the day but every little noise our LO makes I wake up to make sure he's not suffocating. I had an emergency c-section and recovery has been rough so far. I can't wait to feel myself again and for underwear to be able to fit. I'm a consultant so my work is 100% travel and I'm counting down the days (45) until I return to work and get to hire a nanny. When baby is sleeping he is fine but I just can't do this 😭😭😭😭. Just needed to vent. We built our apartment above my hubbys parents house and I am so close to locking my MIL out, every time she comes up she comments on how myself, the baby or my husband are "naked" -Bitch I'm breastfeeding, if you don't like that my shirt is off don't flipping come were no one invited you! 
Needed to vent before I loose it over here 
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Ha

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I know don't want to hear this, but it does get better. I can't even imagine what a csection recover is like, but more power to you! If your feelings get worse, talk with your doctor about postpartum. It's nothing to be ashamed about. So many women go through it and don't realize it (including myself). 

Br

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You sound like you need a mommie day and it sound a bit like postpartum depression.

Je

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Is its a possibility to let her take the baby downstairs after a feeding or something so you can have some peace and take a nap??

ph

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definitely put that mil to use.give her a fed baby and tell her to give you a break so u can nap,shower,eat or just sit and take a breath. ..since your husband is going to be at work you really could do with the extra help ...or maybe ask her to get you some food too...if shes not a nasty person otherwise,you can make her a friend,and get her to help out with the baby ..first you need sleep,once your body and brain is rested,youll be able to work things out...yor mil can also help out at nights.. give her a bottle so u can nap for maybe 4-5hours and then take over and she can rest..best of.luck !!!

ph

phoenix β€’ May 23, 2016
i was a c sec myself....paining all over not able to turn in bed..engorged breasts..being knocked off by the pain meds but not being able to sleep...staying up till 4am cuz my baby was a day sleeper...i have been through it..but i had my mom and sister help out majorly..mom literally would fed me with her hands while i bfed

Je

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I think you may have a bit of ppd and would reach out to someone. Lack of sleep sure can cause you to have some type of feelings. Try some white noise to help baby sleep a bit better such as a fan. When MIL comes up I would feed the baby and see if she can take him for a bit. Couple of hours of uninterrupted sleep can do wonders.  

Ha

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It will get better pretty sure I snapped week 4 lol I even went back to work when he was 10 weeks old just to have a break did two weeks then Xmas break back with him then I lasted all of a week before I quit to be a sahm so something must of got better around that time lol Some people it comes naturally for some people do ok and others have to work at it but you'll get your moment when it all clicks and you can go hey I've got this

Fa

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Hang in there girl!!! If you're not comfortable locking your MIL out then ignore her comments as far as putting any clothes on. Be naked and free. If it makes her uncomfortable she can screw off! #byefelicia Have you tried any essential oils to soothe the mood. I swear by lavender and serendipity by doterra. 

As

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U may have a bit of post natal depression.. Maybe reach out to a counceler xox

Gi

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Lol yea you definitely need to lock your MIL out. Her attitude is not needed.

ja

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It gets better.