23DPO Going nuts here, HELP!

Sara • Writer, visual artist and Bazi astrologer.
This is the longest TWW ever. I had have skipped AF a couple of times before but this time I don't know what to make out of this. I did had a tiny drop of blood today, but 3 BFN already. I don't want to take a blood test because this happened before some months ago. Does somebody have a really effective way to relax and wait? I'm becoming a candy crush addict.