I lost my baby

I'm so sorry honey. I've had 5 miscarriages and I know how devastated you're feeling right now. The last one took almost two months for the bleeding to start after I was told it ended, that whole time every twinge of anything I felt I was convinced that my baby was growing. This is the most painful thing I think anyone can go through, regardless of how far along your were. I know it's hard to see any hope and you probably feel like you're being held under water. Actually accepting what has happened is the first step in being able to pull yourself back together. It is important that you let yourself feel the pain. If you need to cry, do it. When you're consumed by anger, go to a thrift store and grab some plates then bash the living Hell out of them when you get home (sounds crazy but the cleanup is even kind of therapeutic). There is nothing you did to cause this, and it is horribly unfair. One thing that has really helped me was I went and picked out a stuffed animal each time I lost a pregnancy, I will never get to hold my babies but I can hold that animal that represents them. I really hope that you are able to find some peace in this situation eventually. Good luck honey and again, I'm so sorry for your losses.

I am so sorry for you losses. It is truly painful to go through losing those babies that we have hoped for and dreamed of. I hope that soon you can start to feel a little better. Allow yourself to cry when you need it. And don't rush on making any decisions, give yourself some time. Sending you a big hug.  I'm here if you ever want to chat! 

I just wanted to say thank you to the both who commented on this thread. Losing my babies have been the hardest things I've gone through so far in my life, and I've been through a lot. Thank you for your kind words. They truly touched my heart and made me cry from how kind they were. I'll never be okay with them being gone, but one day I'll look into the eyes of my child and they'll know how loved they are, how lucky I am to have them. I also want to extend my condolences for the babies lost. It's truly one of the most painful things.  Some days I feel like I'm going to drown, but I know this too will pass. Thank you again. It meant so much! 

I am so sorry. I was numb for about a week after my d&e. I barely cried, it just didn't feel real. I know how you feel, the pain and emotion can hit you all at once. I had a moment after our first counselling session where I hyperventilated and told my husband I didn't know how to cope with losing the baby we wanted so much. But after that day things have gotten a little better. My husband and I are closer again, I am not as emotionally raw and I am able to talk about my Bub without breaking down.Crying is good, feeling is good, grieving is good.I am so very sorry for your loss and I hope you can start on your journey towards peace.