SO violent.

My SO used to be extremely violent towards me, I thought he had sorted it out as he hadn't layed a finger on me for like a year now, well were TTCing I know you're gonna be like what.. With a asshole bla bla bla he used to have alchole problems and he's had therapy and like I said hasn't been physical in way over a year but anyway yesterday the doc peed on the bed ( don't normally do that ) so he was getting all stressy saying they ain't leaving the front room lalaala so I was like well yeah they are.. Hair shut the bedroom door in not having my dogs locked in the front room all the time well this just made him flip, long story short he ended up like pushing me to the ground and locking me in the front room for about 20 mins.. Anyway I bang on the door and that and he opens it so I just say your pathetic and he's all like what I haven't done nothing wrong lala & I was like what.. You speaking and treating me like ahit for what.. Because the dog peed on the bed. Considering I'm the one who cleans and tidies up and that I dunno why he was soo bloody emotional about it. I'm just sat here thinking WHAT AM I DOING.  For all we know this could be my month and he's thrown me to the ground... 😒 this is not someone I wanna be with nomore. I thought he had fixed himself but clearly it can just come out anytime and I really don't wanna be with someone like that. It's hard as he was in care and has no family what so ever, he lives with me too. When we're argues in the passed and I've told him to leave and I didn't wanna be with him he refuses to go..