Im staying off glow for a while

Been ttc for nearly 2 years now with my fiance it will be his first child. I was only 11dpo had 7 days till af and she showed up week early. Started off what I suspected to be inplantation and ended up full blown af I really thought we'd done it this month. Had symptoms never had. We are devastated again. I feel ive let my fiance down again going to keep off glow for a while cant face seeing so many bfps dont get me wrong im happy for you its just I feel so useless and mad at myself right now. Good luck to all you ladies hope you get your bfps. One day hopefully I'll be posting mine.