The weirdest type of crush

So there's this guy I have feelings for and its the most confusing thing in the world. Half of the time I just wanna kiss him and hold his hand and be with him forever, and the other half of time I just wanna suck the hell out of him and ride him into the sunset lmao. This is the first time I've ever had these type of feelings for a boy, please tell me I'm not alone. 😂