Giving up..

Until the next day when I could barely see the line anymore . And the next day. & that same afternoon . I knew something was wrong. A growing healthy baby would produce more and the line would get dark, right? I was hoping it was just diluted urine or cheap tests . But then the doctors appointment today. I was so nervous, I was praying so so so hard, all I've been thinking about is you baby. I sit and just stare and think everything about you. The doctor finally did the urine test, I watched her do it as it slowly happened. She let it sit in there for a good 15-30 seconds. 

I stopped as she said "are you sure you got a positive?" 

I told her as I'm telling you, it's pretty obvious in the first picture. & I showed it to her. She walked back to test and it was indeed negative. Every word everyone said to me came into my mind. I just felt they were right. A chemical pregnancy. Over and over again, I repeated the words to myself. Why? I'm so hoping you are growing. Still waiting on the blood results but I feel like I already know. I mean wouldn't the hgc double and the lines would get darker. I just can't explain the heartache.