Am I the only one?

I don't miss the relationship I loss, I don't miss sex, I miss the intimacy the small touches, the flirting, the sweet words. But only when they actually mean something. I miss having someone want to be around me and want to listen to how feel or what I think. Is that weird? I'm only 20 and I don't want to sleep around or be in some pathetic relationship where you think it'll last forever to afraid to be alone to admit the truth? 
And sometimes I feel that some people are actually meant to be alone and that I'm one of those people..
I'm beating myself up or saying I'm not worthy of someone I just honestly believe that maybe it not meant to be for everyone.