Confessions of a Bisexual

I'm feeling the need to get this off my chest tonight, and thought here would be a good place to do it. Please don't judge me. 😭

I want to start off by stating that in no way am I saying that I am not attracted to my boyfriend. I have been with him for over 6 months and love him very much, and am very sexually attracted to him.

It's just that I'm bi... I am probably attracted to men and women in a 40:60 ratio, and I would quite like to experiment. I would never cheat though, and he's said no to threesomes, but I just find the female body so beautiful and sexy. I really don't know what to do with myself because porn all feels fake and I have had queer female friends (half-jokingly) offer me sex to stop me being frustrated.

I'm not getting cold feet, I just want to be with a woman so much sometimes and I know that I can't, and wanted to vent about it. Sorry this was kinda long and thanks if you read it all. x