Any one else having anxiety over looking bigger ?

Question

I'm 9 weeks 1 day and I didn't notice till today how pooched out my belly is. And then my SO actually looked at me and said wow you really look pregnant , and then told me not to walk around the whole mall- which is wear he works/ and I used to work until the company closed down... 
   And now I'm crying and having a breakdown because he doesn't want anyone to see I'm pregnant. I have super self esteem issues. I'm boarder line obsessive with trying to look attractive. .. We're getting married this Friday. Really short notice. So I've been trying on dresses all day long that just make me look huge ! So I'm already super upset over this. And seeing how big I look from the side. 
And then he makes that comment ... Like its a bad thing for me to look pregnant ... And doesn't want anyone seeing me ! 
I feel so sad. He own a kisok on the mall and is surrounded by girls wearing crop tops , low cuts , tight pants. Etc. all day long. I feel like he's ashamed of me. 😣😢😭 idk how to feel other then really friken low and ugly. 
And this is my rainbow ! I shouldn't feel this way I was so excited. With my issues of appearance I feel like he should be trying to boost my confidence. Not tell me to hide 😣

Answer

You're beautiful, girl! I understand how you're feeling. I've always had body dismorphia and I've struggled with an eating disorder most of my life. Pregnancy was tough at first (still can be on some days) but think of it this way: you're sharing your body with another person. Sustaining and growing life within you! That's a beautiful and amazing thing! Sure, pregnancy makes you gain weight but you get to meet, take care of and raise the most amazing little person you've ever met.

If your fiancé can't appreciate that, it's his loss. I think you should pull him aside when he gets home and tell him how he made you feel. Maybe he wants to tell his coworkers/staff himself. Nothing good ever comes from making assumptions. Hear him out but explain to him that pregnancy adds extra pounds, hormones and emotions and that you really need his support right now. He might be totally surprised that he came off that way. He can't be a total ass, you're marrying him and sharing a child with him for a reason 😉

Anyways, I know this is long but coming from a lady who gets it: you are amazing and enjoy these wonderful 9 months!!

My helpful tip for dealing with pregnancy and self esteem issues: check your baby's develop every single day. On this app, on Google, on other apps. Just do it. You'll be so focused on the amazing things happening inside you with your little one that all the other stuff just feels pointless to worry about

Remember: you have this app full of wonderful ladies who are here to support you even if it's just: "Me too"

💜🍼✨

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