I feel so down

Octavia • 2 daughters and 2 sons Janiya 15, Joy 14, Kaden 1 Karter a month old
I don't understand y I haven't got pregnant yet it's taking a toll on me I can't stop crying about it everybody I know has had they baby or is pregnant then to make it worse some ppl are getting abortions I have PCOS I take meds for it I have taken so many rounds of clomid and nothing thank you Jesus that we have 2 daughters already I'm just so sick and tired I have a doctors appt today I'm getting on birth control even tho I don't believe in it I just feel so down today I'm crying as I'm typing this sorry it's so long