I'm so sad and I hide it

I had children from a past relationship, I later met my husband. We did everything the correct way so God would be pleased, no sex, no shacking up, premarital classes at church. We were so happy to be doing everything correctly! I had my tubes tied when I was in my last relationship so when I got married I prayed that if my husband and I were not meant to have children that he would stop the process before I got my tubal reversal. I went through with the surgery, 3 miscarriages later I find out both my tubes are blocked. We're told to do ivf and again we prayed, everything went well! Except my ivf failed, I've been so broken, so sad and hurt. I don't know what to pray for now? Do I keep trying? Do I just accept my infertility? I'm lost I'm hurt and I don't share it with anyone because I can't let the hurt out.