I am mother of two beautiful babies one is 2 yr and 2nd is 3 weeks old. Yes i m postpartum. I married to my husband 4 yrs back. We are in a relationship more than 5 yrs. When he is my boyfriend he is very caring and loves me alot but after marriage his behavior change day by day. He is very verbly abusive which i dont like . We get married without our parents permission. So i think things are messed up so that's why he is in tension but now after 4 yrs he is still abusive and talks too loudly which i don't like and i start crying and like always he said don't cry infront of me you are drama queen. I love him so much i don't want to leave him bcz i love my babies as well. Bcz my 2 yr old don't live without both of us. He love his babies so much . But his behaviour qhich now i cant tolerate. He work 5 days 18 hrs no time for family. Rest two days he sleep and go with us for grocery shopping but i do everything and he only roam in shopping center. I dont want money i only want some respect from him and lots of attention and love. I dont want to break my marriage but he is so changed its like i live with another man . When i try to talk to him abt our relationship he change topic every time or start talking loudly to slow down my voice and start talking about how much he do for us and he is in work pressure. Sometimes i think like marrying him is my biggest mistake of life. What i do know sacrifice my whole life for my babies or leave him which i dont wnt to. I m only 23 now. But it looks like his behavior is not gona change he dont hve talking manners nd dont respect youngers and elders. He lies frequently. Or is my postpartum harmones chnge me.