Needed to vent

So I need to vent so me and my soulmate broke up(4 years together) ive did something so stupid by calling and saying how much I miss and love that person 😒I know stupid but I sent a text apologizing because I know they are in a new relationship 😒so I've been casual dating but it doesn't seem to be heading anywhere because they don't have their shit together I'm almost 26 and this 20 year old has a crush on me like I had my life planned out by time I was 28 I wanted to be married with kids and now that plan is so far away so now I'm just focusing on my career that's the only thing that makes sense lately