Tramatic labor first time.

Kristykarina • Currently 32, pregnant with 2nd baby after 10 years and scaredshitlesss hiii
So heres another one. I had my daughter 10 years ago. It was a really bad experience for me. Down the the epidural. I don't think they put it in right or what not cuz my neck went stiff and I felt everything on one side of my body. It was horrible. I couldn't even carry my baby after ....was so exhausted 😫 now 10 years later with my 2nd I'm super duper scared. Idk wether to do natural or what....this time I want to be more involved rather then focusing on everything else....any stories like mine or positive thoughts???