Very discouraged

I'll be 17 weeks tomorrow and I've seen 3 doctors at one practice and 2 at another. I've switched hospitals twice. I want a water birth and they are making it very hard for me. I've scheduled to see a new doctor with a different practice at a different hospital. It's just very overwhelming. I'm tired of explaining myself to everyone over and over and it not working out. 😔 I'm to the point I wanna pack up and move back home so I can go to my wonderful previous doctor. But I'm two thousand miles from home.