I have always liked kids and kids are drawn to me. I have a 6 year old step son as well. Before him, I could see myself with 3 children... But now as time is moving on... I've been trying with my husband for 20 months with 3 failed fertility treatments and the idea of being a mom is becoming less desirable. I just went on a vacation with just my husband and it was so nice. Other peoples children easily get on my nerves and I think... Am I ready to give up sleep, freedom, alone time etc? I'm just not sure anymore... Anyone with me? My husband and I pray for a baby but.. I'm getting cold feet. Could it be bc I'm afraid I can't conceive?