What a kick in the...

1st day of birth control was yesterday. So obviously still on my period. Long day at work. No sleep due to a sick dog the night before. Stressed out and pouring over websites on where to find the cheapest meds and how many and all that jazz. Brother in law and his wife (husbands little brother, they live next door) came by. With ultrasound pictures. Suprise! She's pregnant! I kept it together for the ten minutes they were there and ran sobbing to the bathroom the second they left. I don't want to be jealous, but... Does anyone else get that "why me?!" Pity party started when they hear of someone else so easily getting pregnant?!  I'm so happy and excited for them but just, why can't it be that easy for me?!?! 😫😢😫😢  I'm better today, cried it out to my mommy, and while listening to hubby and i's wedding songs. (Hormones clearly a factor here). Thanks for listening 😊