I usually don't do this but I need someone to talk to, I'll be 32 weeks on Wednesday with my first born is a boy we are naming him Damien 💙👶🏽 due August 10, but I feel so stressed and it not even over him... I have to many things going on, first daycare because I can't afford to be a stay at home mom after maternity leave... It's so damn expensive and my mom lives in PR... Second I am very worried I won't have a baby shower my sister keeps planning but she's doesn't even have a hall yet... I think it'll be hard to find one by now for next month... Our places are way to small for anything really...

Third my dad lives with me, he's sleeping on a twin bed sharing a room with my stepson(he only comes on the weekends) he told me he's leaving with my sister because he doesn't feel comfortable with my man (my man is very to himself he'all sometimes say hy sometimes he won't) I told him that he's like that towards me to but he doesn't like it told me with tears in his eyes it broke my heart! 😭 I know him leaving I will be lonelier than before at least I had him to talk to...

My man has been acting like an ass lately just because my family likes to come over and he likes being alone my sister lives ups stairs for now and she never has keys so she goes through my apt... So I understand him... I asked him if my dad bothered him he said no that he loves my dad... We argued because we went to go look at a bigger place and I wanted to give my dad the room and keep the dining room for the kids, the room would've looked awesome and it would've been so much bigger but he didn't get me... He screamed he wasn't happy that this isn't what he wanted that he wasn't happy... I screamed everything and then we talked about it everything seemed fine all love the next day make up sex whatever... We decided to stay in this small apt but my dad would have to leave before the baby is born

My sister said today she'll be getting the keys to her new apt and it kicked in I'll be alone after my dad leaves, dinner by myself again, lonely nights and I can't wait for my son....

Now today my man said he needs a women who is down for him, because I gave my dad the last taco mind you it's been sitting there for hours... Mind you he barely eats... Mind you he leaves all the food I make in the microwave or what I've bought so I didn't want the taco to go to waiste so I gave it to my dad:/ I felt like shit I even offered to go buy him some at ten at night an he said no...

I've felt soooo extremely lonely this whole pregnancy something that I would've never thought, I think my emotions are acting up or I might be having slight depression with everything that's going on... 😭 I don't want to be alone not now!

I have thought about giving him space after my dad leaves he can sleep in the kids room for a while ... Because in reality I think I need it too, but he's sooo hard headed I know it'll be forever...

Lost girl...

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