All i think about is not feeling like i deserve such a sweet, perfect baby. I also wish i was still pregnant with him so i could keep him safe. Everytime I touch my belly i feel so empty and start crying. my anxiety has sky rocketed since hes been born and i just worry so much about him because of how much I love him... my SO doesnt help either he just tells me im pushing him away by being so annoying and emotional. I just feel so hurt and alone in this process..