I'm lost. I'm 10 weeks pregnant. All my SO and I have been doing lately is fight. All he does is drink and he never use to this much. All I do is cry. And for the first time since I got pregnant the thought crossed my mind that I'd be better off dead. I don't deserve such a miracle with those kind of thoughts. I don't know if the hormones are contributing or not. I used to suffer from depression but it has been a long time since she's showed her ugly face. Help...