10th month no BFP 💔

Laura
My best friend is pregnant after a month of trying, everyone around me is delighted with their beautiful newborn babes and I have come on, again.
Doctor won't do a think til it's been a year and even then will tell me it's my weight and still won't do anything.
I'm trying to lose weight, I really am but I'm finding everything so hard and I comfort eat and o can't seem to stop myself.
I'm really struggling with this now, each month and each negative test weighs heavier and heavier on me and I don't know how long I can keep trying.
All I get told by everyone else is to relax and stop trying so hard, because you know, I hadn't thought of that!
I wanted 1.5 year between my girl and the next on end now it's going to be more like 3.5 :(