i'm so scared of being pregnant, i know my bf don't love me that much. he also worried, we both are far from ready to be a parents because we both still depends on our parents (we are 21, still in uni and it's not common in our country to live on your own with your own place until you get a job with solid salary after graduating).

but i've been having cramps and back pain for more than a week and sometimes they are really bad it pisses me off. but isn't it been too long?

i check my cervix and its pretty deep and high but i don't know if it soft or hard. and the discharge are not alot, it's white and tacky, not stretchy at all.

the last time i had sex was around 28 may - 3 june, i dont remember exactly. it was unprotected and we were using withdrawal.

i also been having stress in the last 2 weeks, 2 friend left me and it was my fault... and that really stressing me out untill now, and with me and my bf getting distance.

i know i should get a pregnancy test, but i'm too nervous to buy it and anxious about the result. planning to buy it today but idk if i have the gut.

sorry for the long post, it makes me feel better to write it down and i'm seeking help from you good people