I spent my while life being picked on and put down because of my weight. I tried everything and I mean everything to lose weight and be normal and I never made it under 225 lbs. My highest weight was when I had my first baby and I was nursing. I got up to 289lbs. I hated myself and the way I looked. Well 4 kids later and leaving an abusive relationship I decided enough was enough I need to live for my kids. I worked hard and still my body was laughing at me I would lose 4olbs my body would say ok let go back up. I cried a lot but I was determined to do this. I went to the doctor again and she said ok it's time for our last resort. She sent me to a weightloss clinic and we worked hard but in the end my only choice was RNY gastric bypass. It has been a hard hard road and I still fight for this everyday and b4 I get the comments trust me this is not the easy way out. I risked my life to be healthy and I risk my life with this everyday. If I eat wrong I pay for it. So yes I still have to eat right and keep moving. That being said this is my 5th pregnancy. B4 I found out I was pregnant in the almost 2 years sense surgery I had lost 120lbs I went from 279 to 159. But my body came back up around 165 and I held steady for over a year. I am now 197 lbs I am almost 26 weeks and I am so worried about the weight coming back off. I don't want to ever be 200 lbs again but I am almost there. I had these pics come up on fb from last year and now I am in a funk. I just needed to vent. And yes I am still eating well I do mess up I have cravings and it's normal. I can still wear a med my boobs and thighs are not to big for a small.