Today is my 3rd wedding anniversary. I woke up this morning and wanted nothing more than to see those 2 pink lines and give my husband the best anniversary gift ever. I want nothing more than to finally make him a father. This year has been the hardest by far. I am always sad. I battle my infertility every day. I NEVER in a million year would have expect that we would still be ttc after 14 months. I am numb at this point. I didn't even cry when the test was negative because I am so used to it by now. I just want it to finally be our turn. I feel so guilty all the time for not being able to make our dream of a family come true.