Blame me his egg less wife

Am here in my doctor office going over why I have not been able to conceive this past 2 years, why I had 3 miscarriages.

I am so angry at my first doctor I want to scream!

Apparently there was a test she could have given me two years ago to see if I was pre-manaupausal and how many eggs i have left. Well she didn't. There I was sitting down listening to the fertility doctor two years later telling me that I am out of eggs and the best chance of me conceiving is by donor egg.

You know when you're in shock and everything pauses, you don't hear a word she is saying, you question yourself is this really happening to me? Me?

My SO was there with me for moral support or not.

It will cost me over $25- $30K to have this procedure. Then to decide if I am going to use a donor egg ( person who I know) or an anonymous donor egg.

The hour and a half drive back home is going to be awkward.

As ashamed as I am having no eggs left to give him a child, I am leaving my womanhood behind and pursuing this next step in order to conceive.

IVF is not covered by my insurance so looking into options...

If you are going through the same obstacle with me please share & let me know how to overcome this pain.

My fertility doctor said that the reason for all the miscarriages was because of me & my husband sperm is healthy he can impregnate anyone but me : * (

his egg less wife