Me and my SO have been together 15 months actively ttc for 7. We were living in a tiny 1 bedroom apartment with my 5yo and his 17 yo cousin. I had moved myself and my 4yo at the time into the apartment because I was living with roommates(family) and giving them almost all my money for bills yet the bills weren't getting paid and middle of winter the heat and power got turned off, it was on a farm so no power ment no water too. So I took all the money I could find and moved into the first apartment I could find. SO moved in shortly after. My SO is a type 1 diabetic and had no insurance. He lost his job from missing to much work from complications of not having his meds but I could handle the bills there alone so it wasn't a big deal. He got Medicaid but stayed unemployed for 8 months witch depleted my savings. A month and a half ago he finally got a job and we were doing well. I found a house that would except us and my dog(pit bull). But since he was out of work for so long I had to take a loan out on my car to pay the first months rent and deposit ($1500). We were doing well. Paid rent early, all our bills were paid early or on time and things were going great! Then he started struggling with his meds again, he lost Medicaid when he got his job. He started stressing and spending... A lot! Then he decided on Father's Day that he wasn't going to work because a father shouldn't have to work on fathers day and of course they fired him. No I have no idea how I'm going to pay my rent let alone the bills. I put my car on the line to get this house! I'm working 2 jobs now and one of them is a driving job so I need my car for work! I've made sure my carpayment is made when due no matter what. But now I'm struggling! If we lose this house I did all of this for nothing! Please don't down on my SO, yes it was his choice to skip work on Father's Day but he was about to lose the job anyway because he keeps ending up in the hospital because he doesn't have all his meds he needs. I've decided on my own that now is the wrong time to be ttc, and I stopped telling my SO when it's time to BD. But I can't get on birth control because it causes to many issues with my body so we haven't really been having sex. And I'm starting to feel a disconnect between us. Idk what to do anymore. I'm working my ass off and getting nowhere fast. 

And please don't tell me I need to kick him out or anything like that because that's not gonna help make ends meet either. And it's not his fault he has diabetes. We are trying to get disability for him but he has to not work for a year while they process his app and all that. I'm worried about losing everything we've worked so hard for but I'm more worried I'm going to lose him. I guess I just needed to get that off my chest.