Hi all, I am just venting out on whats going on. You can comment/read/passby.

So we have been TTC for more than 6 months now. I started getting awful ovulation pain ever since. None of the 2 doctors were able to diagnose what was wrong. Then i conceived in March & miscarried in April. Now I am 6+weeks and last week, we werent able to detect a heartbeat. Just saw the amniotic sac. Im so impatient i cant wait till next appt to see whats in store. I am extremely scared bcoz of previous MC. Besides, ive been taking IT classes to boost my career/life/salary. The 1st few classes were good. Now i feel like being raped by those classes. I feel like I am dumb, i dont know anything. I wont be able to find a job. Why dont feel excited that I am pregnant, why dont i feel excited for my new house? I dont feel like cooking, going out, reading, nothing. I cant finish my homework. I feel miserable. Why do i feel like no one'd hire me when they know im pregnant. Please leave a comment if you have any advices/ suggestions on how to tackle pregnancy/job simultaneuosly.