Stuck

So i met a guy a while back and we hit it off right off the bat i mean it was literally love at first sight ! We dated for a few more months (though for some reason it felt like i was with him forever) and we were perfect together !!! like we even had a good system for when we would argue.

Anyways, i am super religious and i absolute love my religion like it has saved me in so many ways.... but he doesnt ... in fact his parents hate my religion to be honest.

So i broke up with him because we would always end up with like no close on (not to mention the fact that he told me one time how he tried to pick up other girls while he was with me) i hated to turn him on and get that close but then have to shut him down... not only did i feel guilty about being such a disappointment to him like that but i also felt guilty for not following my church.... i wanna get married in the temple and i want my husband to love god more then he loves me in fact but .... i have never loved anyone this much and i have never felt safer with anyone but him. He taught me so much about how to express myself and he let me be independent but i always knew i could run to him and he would fix me right up ..

He makes me confident but my church makes me strong..

The freak do i do.