Baby shower??? :/

Amber
Okay so I am due with my 3rd on Oct 12th. My oldest is 7, and my youngest is 4--both boys, and this will be a girl. Is it odd or selfish of me to hope my church throws me a shower? Several girls are due with their first in Nov-Jan and honestly I am going to be a little pissed if they completely skip over me. There will be a 4+ year gap since my last one plus it is our first girl. I think she is just as special as her brothers, and there are still a few things we need. Ugh. These hormones are making me crazy. :( Also we lost our little boy at 17 weeks last Sept.