Anyone else impatient??

Im 5w 6d.. I dont go for my ultrasound until july 25 .. I just had a still born (my baby boy) due to ruptured amniotic sac .. My membranes ruptured at 16w 4d . April 8th is when i gave birth to him i was only 23w 1d  .. Im Wondering why they arent seeing me earlier to check to see if everything is good.. So scared..