I know this sounds horrible of me but I'm scared I won't love my second son as much as my first. My first son will be 4 in a month and I'll have my second son in 2 weeks. My first son and I are very close, you might say we are codependent which I know isn't a good thing. If hes with his great grandma for more than 2 hours he wants to come home and I am always looking forward to that, I don't like being away from him. We play and have fun and he brightens my day and he's really amazing. I love he's my son. So what if I don't love my second as much as him?