Has anyone randomly caught your boyfriend watching porn while your sleeping? & he knows your very insecure about your own looks? am i wrong to feel sad & miserable about it? has anyone caught theyre boyfriend watching naked girls dancing on youtube & he denies it? am i wrong to get mad about it? honestly i am jealous, Cause it feels like i am not worth enough for him, it makes me feel like i am not the right looks or size for him, ive always see him checking out tiny filipino girls *id wish to go back & stab his neck.* i remember couole months ago or more, me & my bf was with his sister, his sister & her baby daughter at the store to grab some groceys, in the corner of my eye i keep feeling like we aint together like he was tryanna play single walking away, she walk pass me & him i saw him tryanna act like he wasnt checking her out but he was fully staring, like i dont ever existed to him like i was never known to him honestly it made me feel like shit i was crying & crying i tryana put my self in place, he knew i caught him doing it in front of me made me so hurt. & when we was almost to the cashier to purchase our groceries he snap on me calling me a slut cause im stupid for thinking he was checking out that girl he call me a fucking worthless piece of shit, then it hit me when his sister was tryanna make me feel better she said "if you wasnt checking her out why you getting all mad? if you werent lusting in your head for that girl in front of the girl you been with for almost 3 years you wouldnt get mad , ive seen you check her out in front of her its very disrespectful & you dont deserve her" i wanted to stop tearing my face was red i couldnt stop. i love that the fact she felt sad for me & tryanna help me out im thankful for it. but he makes me feel guilty that he should be with other girls & not me??? thoughts runs in my head what he use to be & how he use to be. all i do is cry over him & i guess im worthless to everyone even when im pregnant. am i a bad person for crying & being mad that he was having sexually thoughts for a exxxtra small girls? & she has fucked up teeth, & im just jealous my bf having orgasms thoughts about her. why does men like exxxxtra small girls? honestly? makes me want to shoot my boyfriend. 😢