Still upsetting after 2 months

Everyone is pregnant!  I'm feeling depressed that I will never be happy and blessed with a child! I'm been fine for a while and everytime I hear or see happy news for someone I go in a state of depression. I would have been 18 weeks and my child passed. I see everyone happy with their baby or soon to be baby! I have faith but I question things that happened to me. I'm sorry I'm complaining and I know it could have been worst like being further along. 😓 I'm just venting.