Completely overwhelmed

I have so much going on right now.. I don't know where to start. I need like a bottle of wine. I'm not trying to get pity, Just ranting and frustrated because I feel alone.

I'm 38+4 today and have 2 children, both under 4 years of age. My husband is currently in the ER because he is not feeling well. I don't know what's wrong with him but he started going off on me because I wouldn't drive him to the hospital, which is literally down the road. Ugh.. My children are from a previous relationship, and their father lives 4 hours away, he wants to take them both next week to stay with him and his girlfriend for 2 weeks. It will be the first time they both go, I just got my son back on the 6th from 12 days gone with his dad.. Mind you, I had bad separation anxiety.

My mother is leaving for a week, the day I'm due, and she was my extra support in my time of baby birthing. Not that she was going to be in the hospital but she would've brought my kids to visit me, and meet their brother. Now, nobody will visit and I won't see my kids until they get back. Also, my best friend moved to NY to pursue another career and left yesterday, I didn't get to see her, or say goodbye. 😢

My 27th birthday is tomorrow, and usually everyone always forgets and I don't care to remind them. Between running after my 2 kids, being pregnant and feeling like my baby is just relaxing on my bladder and facing my back, I feel crappy mostly all the time.

Today, I had a panic attack and feel like I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown. I don't know how to cope.. I literally feel like I'm alone with everything. 😥