Hurting

Me and my boyfriend went to the beach with his family for his birthday. Well, we ended up not getting along and it ruined it. I was mad over something stupid (he promised to get me something and instead he got extra thing on his shirt which was pot leafs) then another day he was really mean to me and just kept putting me down. For that reason, i didn't wanna be around him so he went to the boardwalk without me. He comes back and leaves the hotel room twice with his younger brother. I followed him once, trying to talk. He told me he was staying out all nice since it was our last day there. At that point, i broke up with him turned around and walked back to the hotel. I just layed there in the dark and cried alone. When he came back around 2 am he wouldn't talk to me. He wouldn't touch me. He just acted selfish all week. Like he completely didn't even care about our relationship. We broke up Friday and i find out he's texting my best friend while shes in the showerr asking for pictures saying she turns him on shes kinky. I find out last night he went back to his old ways, just getting high and not caring. I can't believe I've wasted a yeat and seven months of my life. This isn't ever fare...i don't deserve this. We're always off and on in my relationship but i guesss this time i realize he's not gonna change