I am feeling hopeless

So starting about 5 DPO I started with sore nipples and low back pain and a big glob of snot like cm (sorry tmi). Then about 6/7 DPO I got very light pink spotting but only had it twice so I thought possibly could be implantation. I continued with the symptoms and was feeling very tired all the time still have nipple soreness and boobs feel heavy. I also keep getting like uti like symptoms but I've been drinking a lot of water. I also right after ovulation have a very high very closed and soft but firm cervix. Now I am 12 DPO and I have been testing and still no bright BFP and my cervix feels more open today and possibly lower. I feel so hopeless that I thought this was going to be my month. But it's looking like I'm out. If anyone has any encouraging stories or is having the same symptoms I just need someone to talk to. Here are my tests that I have taken. The one on the bottom is from today and I probably just have line eyes but I really do see something!!! Thanks 🙏🙏🙏🙏