Feeling discouraged :(

Talitha • Mommy to three beautiful angel babies
Just feeling sad. I told myself not to but i can't help it. I just want my rainbow baby (lost twin boys 22 weeks pregnant, 5 years ago. Miscarriage 7 months after) 😢😢 I've been experiencing my normal pms symptoms like cramps for a couple days. Glow says af is due on the 1st, Ovia says the 2nd (i trust Ovia more). I know I'm not officially out until the witch shows her ugly face, but i feel like I'm out. Received my pos opk on the 17th of July, i don't temp, so depending on when i actually ovulated I'm either 11 or 12 dpo. It's only been 6 months of literally ttc for us, but for 4 years me and hubby haven't used condoms and I wasn't on birth control. Looking back at my cycles we've always had sex in my fertile window. We just haven't gotten pregnant in those 4 years. Everyone around me is expecting even my older sister. And my best friend has a 3 week old son. As happy as i am for every single person, it saddens me that i still haven't conceived. I've had everything checked out doc says I'm fine. I'll just keep praying and hoping that one day soon it happens for me too. ❤❤❤❤