Maybe?... HOPEFULLY! Trying to avoid Fertility Treatments.

We're praying that this is THE month. I went to the doctor yesterday and they've officially scheduled me with a fertility specialist.

:-( I have no clue how I'm going to afford fertility treatments. Our first appointment alone, just for consultantion, is almost $400! I'm honestly not sure we're willing to go through all of it. Between us we have 4 children of whom we have full custody. We have 1 together, and have been praying for 1 more together. I really really really want one more baby with him. I really am blessed and truly grateful for the 4 we have, and I'm not discrediting that blessing, but I would LOVE one more chance at a biological son. Our only son(who we love to death) is biologically his ex wife's with another man, but my husband met her half way through pregnancy, married her, and signed his birth certificate. Then when she left he got full custody of him and I later adopted him. I've been his mother since he was 2 years old, and I adore him, but all of our biological children are girls. *sighs* We just whole heartedly want another chance at another son, and another baby, period. But with 4 kids to take care of, I'm not sure expensive, lengthy, physically tolling, and possibly unsuccessful fertility treatments are a reasonable decision. I'm thinking about leaving it with God, and either it happens naturally... Or it doesn't. :-(

My appointment with the specialist is the 22nd. I pray for good news before that day.