Not happy about this baby..need support pls

Chambree
I just had a baby in November and Im 10 weeks pregnant now. Ive had multiple miscarriages early and late. I've been so down about this new pregnancy because I wasn't ready for another and because of what I have to go through. Yes I know I put myself in this position but I just don't feel like I'll get happy about this anytime soon. Don't get me wrong I love my two healthy beautiful daughters I have now and it was a journey to get them here. And I know some ppl would kill to be in my position but I guess I'm just more worried than anything. My husband is excited but even after seeing the baby on the ultrasound still nothing from me.